This has been a hard post to articulate. I think one of the coolest and most fun things is having a crush. Some people probably think it's hard-rending, but I think it's awesome. Maybe the difference is that I don't take crushes very seriously. Oh, I definitely have in the past because I learned how much fun a crush could be if you just enjoyed it and took it for what it was. I've never thought that having a crush meant that you were in love. Of course, you can be in love and have a crush on the same person. Or, you can be in love and NOT have a crush on that person. Let me tell you what, though....the crush is the fun part. It's that level of obsession that draws you to a person (but not the level of obsession that turns you into a stalker). Your day gets instantly better when you see them. You belief that your life has been blessed when they actually talk to you. Your dream is to spend more time with them, learning more about them. THAT's a crush...and it feels good.
I've have a TON of crushes in my life. Sometimes, friendship or love actually developed. More often than not....I just traded one crush for the next. The thing is, even though each of my crushes was pretty transient and required no loyalty on my part, I still treasure their memory. I honestly don't wish they'd become something they didn't. In fact, I plan to have more crushes in the future. I can hear some of my friends and acquaintances right now saying, "But, you're a married woman." Yes. Yes, I am and I love my husband more than anyone. He's my best friend. But, I'm still going to have crushes on people that aren't him. This would be the perfect time to label me, if you'd like ;-).
Oh, you're still reading? Well, in that case, here's my list of the most powerful crushes I've had. Keep in mind that there were hundreds (yes...hundreds) more that lasted an hour or a day...or a week. The people on this list, however, made a lasting impression on me. So, from youngest to oldest...and subject to future editing, here it is.
1. Michael Jarvis - He and his twin sister started going to West Godwin Elementary School in 2nd Grade. He lived at the corner of 34th street and Clyde Park. I wanted to be his friend more than anything. Those stars, however, never aligned.
2. A.J. Morris - From 4th grade to current. I think I'll have a crush on him forever. If he's turned out anything like his dad, it'll be a fun crush to have.
3. Jim Boice - Part of 7th grade...and then I didn't. Maybe part of having a crush is not knowing someone very well. Once I got to know him, the crush dissipated.
4. Matt/Nate York - 6th - 8th grade? This was one of those crushes that was not individual specific. I liked them both.
5. Les Williamson - High School - But seriously, is there a girl that didn't have a crush on him? Man, high school crushes are a little more intense than the earlier ones (if not as much fun). Even now I think "Damn, he was hot" and it was the early nineties. Nobody was hot.
5b. Chris Smith - Senior Year - but I'm not sure that that was a good crush because it wasn't as much fun.
6. John Volker - freshman year of college.....everyone needs a bad boy crush. He was definitely it.
Then I was done for crushes for awhile.....and then....
7. Josh Mason - that started out with a crush and ended up with a supernova catastrophe. Maybe that's why I think crushes are best left to enjoy but not to indulge.
Then....the beginning of the star-struck crush...which is totally different. When you have the star-struck crush early on, it translates into something like Bieber Fever or that...well...crap. When you're older, however, it seems to be different. It's more mellow perhaps? But, it's not mellow.
Which brings me to 8.
8. Jang Hyuk - current(ish) a comfortable crush
9. Lee Minho - A Les Williamson crush.
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